Faith

Managing my broken heart…

What a way to start a blog?!! But it’s honest, it might not be fun or inspiring but I do believe good things come out of brokeness! Here I am for reasons I may get to share, but honestly I am praying the Lord  resolves some before I even write about them. My journey has many mountains, mudslides and mishaps. ( I almost named this blog that 🙂 I am a mom to 4 children, 3 of which have a genetic disorders, I was a young mom who felt the strain of worrying about surgeries and finances. It took years of an unhealthy marriage to learn what unconditional love truly meant, we made it out of some of those valleys bruised and broken but oh how our faith grew! Miracles we were gifted through heartbreak. Beauty from the ashes.

Loss, we have felt loss with a miscarriage, where in my brokenness I sat by the toilet and cried for the baby lost. We have lost kids we ministered to to drugs and accidents and even though they were not “mine,” they had a place in my heart. I have a heart for adoption that I was born into more on that another time.

We have lost jobs, and things, and credit scores, and even friendships… There was even a trial in life where I almost lost hope. This is the deepest of loss, to lose hope!

Sometimes in life you will begin a journey only to later find you were not going to see it to fruition. For some it is a marriage that succumbs to the battles of vows. Others it’s a picture perfect image in your mind of a lifelong career.  A calling that doesn’t work out? Here is where I am today sitting at the table managing my brokenness and confusion once again. My solution is not to build up walls or pretend it’s not broken or even blame anyone…I put my big girl panties on and I decided today is the day I learn to blog!!!!

Where are your broken pieces? What will you chose to do with them? Thanks for joining me here where I reflect, be transparent, and live beautifully broken!

XOXO,

Jennifer

Isaiah 43:18-19 

“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”